A while ago, I came across a page on Facebook called ‘Love What Matters’ and it has been very inspiring to me.
I read this post https://www.facebook.com/lovewhatreallymatters/posts/1181967328492330:0 about a family who had just delivered a baby. The mother was hemorrhaging and the husband was in crisis, contemplating her impending death. I’ll let you read what happens, but it really got me thinking.
In the last moments with his wife, he couldn’t stop thinking about the fights they had or the things he didn’t do for her. In that situation, I imagine I would contemplate the things I intended to do for my loved ones, the experiences we would miss out on, the time I should have spent.
In those final moments, he felt guilty pleading with God to save her because he didn’t feel he deserved help; like he hadn’t been good enough up to that point. This part really hit me hard as something I would feel as well. I often don’t pray for help, reasoning that I haven’t always been consistently spending my love on what matters most. But even if I were doing my part, or being a better follower of Christ, would I feel any more deserving of a miracle? Yikes! What a broken pattern.
I’ve had some strong thoughts lately to just stop what I am doing and make better use of my time. To help me focus my efforts on what matters, I’ve started to create a list of things I actually want to spend my time on. Things that are important to me. So here goes:
- My husband, my kids, & making more memories with them
- Learning how to become closer to my Creator and the universe he created
- My parents, siblings, extended family, & making more memories with them
- Documenting & displaying the memories we make
- Searching for more creative outlets (of any kind) – this does incredible things for my soul
- Listening to music
- Learning about new things that interest me
- Discovering new places, people, food
- Helping others find the inspiration to love what matters to them
As I’ve been more intentional about where I’m spending my precious time, I find that those other things I used to do are less important and the old habits are slowly changing. As the post I referenced was quoted as saying, ‘I walked with more love in my heart for everything in that moment.’ I’m striving for this every day.